Well I Guess This Is Growing Up

My first blog entry as a 22 year old!
To be honest, I don't really feel THAT different, but being 22 still takes some getting used to. Its such a random number. 22. I guess a part of me feels like life stops at 21.

I'm writing this at Uni, which is pretty weird. I feel exposed down here in the computer suite!!! Anybody can see that I am blogging. How lame am I? Hahaha.. Blogs are funny.. anyway I'm going off on a tangent..

So in case you didn't hear already, I found out yesterday that I will no longer be studying at the University of Otago. My plan, up until yesterday, was to finish my English Degree. I was in no way ready to stop being a student just yet. I was going to take another semester to polish off a few more papers and then BOOM! Double major.

But no.

As fate would have it, I was rudely awoken to the reality that I would need 10 more papers to complete my English Degree. 10. Not the 4 or 5 I had initially thought.
That was going to take more than a semester.

So I considered my options.
I could put myself through a hellish year of doing 10 English papers (I flippin' hate English with all my being, and doing the 6 English papers in the first 3 years at Uni felt like torture) OR I could do a Masters Degree in Film Studies OR I could hang up my book bag and Uni ID Card and start living my life in the real world.
I talked to my Dad about it, and we decided that the 3rd option was the best.

I told him I was confused about my future, to which he responded that he was quite sure I have been confused ever since I left high school and told him I was going to study Film and Media Studies.
I guess that may be true...
But I don't regret what I studied!!!!!!

I have loved studying film, and I know one day I will be able to use MOST of what I learned, if not as a film critic then at least as someone who works in the film industry.

I have loved my time as a student, and I'm going to miss it immensely.
I can't even imagine my life after University.
Four years.
I would like to stay longer but its mostly because I am terrified of change and I am reasonably good at being a student. I've always enjoyed attending lectures, and I even like writing essays. As weird as that is.
I like writing, if you haven't gathered that already... (you're actually reading my blog right now).



So, what's next for me?

That is a question I don't exactly know the answer to.
I am staying in Dunedin. That's one thing I know. And I hope to get a good job somewhere, if not working in film/media stuff than at least something that will help me save up some money.
The world is my oyster, as people say. I will probably need to leave Dunedin next year, but I'll worry about that later.

For now, Dunedin is my home. And I'm not leaving just yet.
Church is pumping, I have some awesome friends, and until I feel God calling me to depart this fair city, I will be sticking around..


Being a grown-up is scary. My future is unknown, but at least I know that if worst comes to worst, I'll always be able to call Dunedin my home. I LOVE YOU, DUNEDIN!


With that, I leave you. Many thanks for reading my introspective ramblings. You are truly awesome.

Here is a picture of me back when I was 18. Twas such a simpler time back then. x

#Disappointment.

This is hard to write.
But I figure the world is going to find out about it eventually.
Its the kind of thing you can't keep hidden forever.
I'm not writing it as a Facebook status as I feel it would just be down-buzzing for everyone.


If you are reading this, it means you read my blog and you actually made an effort to leave Facebook and come to this website in order to read what this #Disappointment is.


I didn't get First Class Honours.
I can't even believe it.
I just assumed everyone got First Class. You never really hear about anyone getting Second Class First Division (well I have, but only once).
Everyone always goes on about how they got First Class.
Anything else isn't good enough.

I completely f-ed up my Honours year clearly.
Not gonna lie- I've had a bit of a cry. I'm just so disappointed in myself.

I already gathered that academic writing wasn't really for me, but I tried really hard.
Guess it wasn't hard enough though.

I am having a pity party,
This is me having a pity party.


Waah. Feel bad for me. #Firstworldproblems.




I'm such a disappointment.



This sucks.



I told everyone if I didn't get First Class my life was going to be over.
So this is my life being over.
Yes, I'm being a drama queen.



I just had a cry to my parents. My dad told me he doesn't care I got 2nd Class 1st Division.
I thought he would be super upset with me but he told me that he is proud I passed Honours and that at the end of the day none of this stuff even matters.

But it matters to me!!!!!

He said that God loves me and Jesus died for me and that is all that actually matters. Haha...
Mum told me to go watch X Factor to make me feel better. And eat a tim tam.
Dad also told me I'm not allowed to cry about this again so I'll try not to.
But I feel sad.




I need a hug.

Recording my EP

So this week has been pretty interesting!
I got a job for SUMMER which is awesome and I am super stoked about it!

"What is my job?" I hear you ask, well its basically just being a caregiver. Looking after people in their homes. I know what you are thinking, I'm not very caring or whatever, but I actually am THANKYOUVERYMUCH and I really enjoy it, so there!

Not only am I working now, but I have also been in the recording studio with my friends Matt and Matt. I like to call them Matt squared. Matt2. They are both University Music Degree Graduates so they know what they are doing!

The EP will only contain 5 songs, even though I have written a few other songs within the last few weeks. It would be cool if they could make it onto the EP too but at this point that's not going to happen.

So far we have recorded almost all the guitar parts, put the drums and the bass in there and Matt2 have also programmed some strings and stuff. My song Stars is sounding SO EPIC!!!!
It's all very exciting.

I will be holding a release party for the EP once it's finished, not entirely sure on when though. I would like to have it sooner rather than later, but I might have to wait until University is back up and running and the majority of my music supporters are back in town. No point having a release party and no-one turning up.

The fact that I'm even recording an EP is a huge deal to me.
It was on my Bucket List. I was gonna try to do it before I was 23 (don't know why I picked that age, just did) but I didn't know if it was ever going to happen. Luckily for me, I have friends who believe in my music! So I offer the massivest thank you to all the people who contributed to the making of this EP. When Chloe told me about it I almost cried. I feel so blessed and grateful. You guys are awesome and I love you.



That's all from me! Here are some photos that Matt took of the recording process. We have only been in the studio for a week and I'm not entirely sure how much longer we will need. We haven't even gotten around the vocals yet!

 Me sleeping. It was 10am. I'd been up since 6.30am. I was tired, ok?

 Me smiling, because it's all coming together and it's AWESOME!

Recording stuff! To be honest I don't really know how to work the software at all, but I do know where the record button is so that's something.