Two Weeks In Kaitaia Already

Hello Blog,

This is my first entry in Kaitaia since last summer, and its already been two weeks!
What do I have to show for it? Not a lot. Haha...
No but in all honesty I have been spending most of my time by myself/with the dogs/with my family and its just what I needed.
I am leaving for Auckland in two days, at which point I will be travelling to Taupo, Wellington and then Dunedin. I won't be back in Kaitaia for a month.

Its good, its definitely the right thing to do. Briar, a very good friend of mine is having her 21st on Saturday that's why I'm going to Taupo. Since I have Creative Media project in Dunedin a week after that I figured I may as well just make my way back to the deep South from Taupo, as opposed to coming back to Kaitaia and then leaving again. That just seems silly.

I could have stayed in Dunedin til the project, but I honestly couldn't have handled it. Stress levels in the flat reach fever pitch around the time of exams and the full force of my homesickness kicks in. So I couldn't stay, there was no chance. The morning after my last exam I got on a plane and got the heck out of there.

Haven't really talked to many people since I've been back. I don't really leave the farm either, the most productive things I do is help my mum out with burning stuff/planting trees/odd jobs around the place like cutting down chinese privet (its a weed).
I don't go on Facebook much either because last summer I was on there WAY TOO MUCH! I don't want to be that girl who sits on the computer all day wishing she was somewhere else. I want to embrace the fact I am back on the farm, its awesome here!!!! So much space and its so green and beautiful. I can wear my shorts and gumboots and just walk around with the dogs. I get splattered with mud and the dogs scratch up and bruise my legs but its not even a problem.

Hopefully I can keep this "positive" attitude up when I get back to Kaitaia and the novelty of being home wears off. The fact I have started listening to Evanescence with the volume turned right up reminds me that my inner angst is still there and will continue to show up every now and then if I don't keep it in check.

But one good thing about the angst is that it is good fuel for my songwriting, which I have started to get back into now. I'm hoping to have a couple more finished songs under my belt by the time I go back to University in February.

I think that's all from me at the moment. Who knows when I'll be writing again! Cheers to anyone who read this, you're cool. :-P