Sometimes I feel like I am the saddest girl in the world.
I know I'm not, I'm not even close to it. But that's just how I feel.
I should change this blog name to "The Saddest Girl in the World"
The other day I was having lunch with a friend and I was soooooooo sad, he bought me an ice cream and I trudged down the road with him and I think I must have been the saddest girl to ever have an icecream. I don't even remember why I was so sad.
People say I let my emotions run my life.
I guess I would agree with that.
I just don't know how to feel better though.
I try to explain why I feel sad.
Right now I tell myself its because I miss the dogs and my family and being on the farm.
Honours is getting me down.
I constantly feel like I'm not doing enough.
My friends say things to me that upset me because I'm too sensitive.
I don't know what I am doing.
I don't think I am doing a good enough job with anything.
This sounds like that 'Lost' blog entry I wrote a little while ago...
You probably think all I do is complain.
I do complain a lot.
I'm not the saddest girl in the world, but I am sad.
And I don't deserve to be sad, which makes me more sad.
I'm sorry this wasn't funny.
You were probably expecting something funny.
Do you have any advice for me? Some encouragement? You can tell me that I don't deserve to be sad and have heaps to be grateful for but I already know that. You can tell me anyway though.
I know Jesus loves me and I should cast all my worries onto Him, but its hard.
I don't even know how to do it.
Help?
Ok, I'm going to go now.
Thanks for reading this, and sorry again that it wasn't funny.
Hey Martz, this was really interesting for me, I never you knew you felt that way. I don't think I've felt like this before, so I could try and give you advice but I don't want to be patronising. You could read my secret blog... I don't tell anyone I've started one. There might be something there that would be helpful.
ReplyDeleteI love you (I hope you realise my honest in saying that, not just take it as token)
Krystle :D
Hey hon ,
ReplyDeleteSounds like how I was feeling when I was diagnosed with depression :(, I would say just try and focus on the happy, and if that doesn't work, go see a doctor or get some sort of help, because it is definitely not normal to feel sad all the time like that.
Lots of love from way up here in Auckland
xo Rhiannon
Aw! thats so sad!! **hugs**
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