A Constant State of Tiredness

Before I started writing this, I thought I'd try to find a picture of me being tired on Facebook.
I couldn't find anything.
I then realised that in almost every photo, I was tired, you just can't always tell.

So until I get Lyndon to send the photo he screenshotted of me TOTALLY EXHAUSTED at work that I initially sent to him via snapchat, this blog will have to remain photo-less.

Sorry about that.

I know photos make the blog more fun. I am a firm believer in that anyway.



I am tired all the time.

No, I don't have an iron deficiency.
I don't think its my diet, I eat a lot of iron.
It may be due to a lack of exercise but I'm on my feet all day at work so I don't think its that either.

I feel like I live in a constant state of tiredness.


Anyone who spends an extended period of time with me, such as my main man Lyndon, can vouch for this.
I am always tired.
And if I'm not tired initially, I will be by the time I've hung out with you for awhile.


I tend to be the most tired on my first day back at work, and also halfway through my days off.

I don't fully understand why I'm so tired all the time, but it has made my life a bit harder to live.



There are loads of things I would love to do, but I'm just too tired.

I want to play gigs
Write more songs
Hang out with more of my friends
Travel around Otago
Walk dogs at the SPCA
Volunteer to help more at church
Go running
Organise my room
Learn how to play more chords on the guitar
Visit friends I haven't seen in years


But I'm just too tired to do any of these things.



I'm tired on a Sunday because I always stay up too late on Saturday night and don't get enough sleep on a Sunday to make me function normally.
I'm tired on Monday because its my day off and my body is recovering from the week
I'm tired on Tuesday because its my first day back at work and my body finds it hard to get back into the swing of things
I'm tired on Wednesday because its my day off again and my body's like: WOAH WHAT HAPPENED?!
I'm tired on Thursday because I'm back at work again, and I have to once again get used to being on my feet all day
I'm tired on Friday because I am at work again and feeling a bit drained. Everyone's like: YEAH ITS THE WEEKEND! But you still have to work
I'm tired on Saturday because I'm working again and feeling really worn out from being on my feet all day and talking to people non-stop.

And the cycle continues.

I will admit that I'm not as tired as I used to be when I only had 2 days off as opposed to 3, but I'm still tired most of the time. It sucks :-(


I think a huge part of it is the fact I'm an introvert.
My job in the Cafe is super draining on me. By the time I get home from work the LAST THING I want to do is hang out with people (Lyndon not included). I would like to hang out with Lyndon any time of the day, but that's different.

Groups of people suck my energy away.

Hence, if you have invited me to stuff this year and I haven't gone, its because I have been too tired.

I am sorry about this.


I'm going to try really hard to be better next year.

At the moment my favourite thing to do after work is come home and watch TV shows on my Laptop alone in my room. I will, of course, let Lyndon watch with me sometimes, or I will go out and hang out with him, but that is as much as I can manage.



I guess I just felt I should explain why I suck so badly this year and have become a bit of a hermit.
I was telling my friend Natalie that my tiredness is hindering my life. I'm just too tired to do anything about it.
Ironic, isn't it? :-P



But anyway, thanks for reading.
And thanks for being accepting of my condition. I won't be at the Cafe forever, hopefully one days I won't have to live in a constant state of tiredness anymore. I'll also have you know I get about 9 hours sleep every night so its not as if I am not getting enough sleep. Its more likely I'm getting too much, but I can't really help that as I'm just too tired.


I FOUND THESE PHOTOS! Semi-relevant.

Stay classy xx