Back To Doing Nothing

Hey Blog,
So I couldn't write while I was in the middle of my summer craziness but now that I am back in good ol' Kaitaia I will try to fill you in on what's happening.
As you probably know I just finished an INTENSE three week film project with Student Life, the week before that I was travelling to Auckland by bus (took 6 flippin hours, pretty draining), and then by vehicle to Taupo for a very good friend's 21st. It was really fun, and I'm glad I was able to be there. After that I got another ride down to Wellington and stayed with a friend until the next day when I flew down to Dunedin!!!! My story already sounds pretty crazy, but it gets crazier because I spent the next week watching One Tree Hill DVD's and packing up my bedroom in the Gables flat I now FORMERLY lived in (since I am officially moved out).

Creative Media Project eventually started and that was a wild adventure in itself. I met some really fun people and had a great time learning heaps of stuff about film and then actually getting out there and filming stuff and editing it and putting it all together.
I'm not going to pretend like it was always fun though, I found it hard to cope sometimes because I desperately crave alone time. I also didn't have my guitar with me :( Usually I relieve stress by jamming out to angry songs, but I was unable to do so. Surprisingly I didn't have as huge of a meltdown as I initially expected.
I had a bit of a cry on my 21st birthday when my Dad told me our dog Sheba isn't doing so well but I managed to suck it up and carry on so that's all good!!! Dad isn't the most tactful person I've ever met...

We had so many laughs on project though, I'm super happy I had the opportunity to go and be part of it. Now that its over though I am pretty keen to spend the next two months with my parents and the dogs, and maybe try to figure out what I'm going to do my dissertation on next year too (that could be helpful).
I have been playing heaps of guitar since I've been home but I am yet to pick up the songwriting that I was working on before I left Kaitaia over a month ago.

I also can't believe its Christmas in a few days! Since I wasn't at home no-one bothered to put up any Christmasy things (because apparently that's MY JOB). I told my Mum I wasn't going to do it though... I'm too lazy... haha.

Oh yeah, yesterday I had my third 21st. I got one of those sweet as wooden keys with your face on it. Cecil never got one (because he's lame), so I'm pretty happy with it, haha :-P The party was pretty hilarious, it was 7/8ths older people and only very few that were even around my age. Couldn't have asked for much better though. My first 21st was on 30 September, second one was during project and on my ACTUAL birthday (it was really special because my friend Pen made me cupcakes and everyone sang to me a number of times) and my third one was 2 weeks after that. I feel pretty grateful I was able to have three 21st's, because I didn't even expect to have one!
Just goes to show that people can surprise you :-)

Anyway, so Christmas is in Kerikeri again this year. Should be good, but a bit weird because Emil won't be there :( It'll be good to see the extended family though. I have no idea what I am going to do all of January and half of February up until I head off for Dunedin again...

Guess we'll have to wait and see.

Two Weeks In Kaitaia Already

Hello Blog,

This is my first entry in Kaitaia since last summer, and its already been two weeks!
What do I have to show for it? Not a lot. Haha...
No but in all honesty I have been spending most of my time by myself/with the dogs/with my family and its just what I needed.
I am leaving for Auckland in two days, at which point I will be travelling to Taupo, Wellington and then Dunedin. I won't be back in Kaitaia for a month.

Its good, its definitely the right thing to do. Briar, a very good friend of mine is having her 21st on Saturday that's why I'm going to Taupo. Since I have Creative Media project in Dunedin a week after that I figured I may as well just make my way back to the deep South from Taupo, as opposed to coming back to Kaitaia and then leaving again. That just seems silly.

I could have stayed in Dunedin til the project, but I honestly couldn't have handled it. Stress levels in the flat reach fever pitch around the time of exams and the full force of my homesickness kicks in. So I couldn't stay, there was no chance. The morning after my last exam I got on a plane and got the heck out of there.

Haven't really talked to many people since I've been back. I don't really leave the farm either, the most productive things I do is help my mum out with burning stuff/planting trees/odd jobs around the place like cutting down chinese privet (its a weed).
I don't go on Facebook much either because last summer I was on there WAY TOO MUCH! I don't want to be that girl who sits on the computer all day wishing she was somewhere else. I want to embrace the fact I am back on the farm, its awesome here!!!! So much space and its so green and beautiful. I can wear my shorts and gumboots and just walk around with the dogs. I get splattered with mud and the dogs scratch up and bruise my legs but its not even a problem.

Hopefully I can keep this "positive" attitude up when I get back to Kaitaia and the novelty of being home wears off. The fact I have started listening to Evanescence with the volume turned right up reminds me that my inner angst is still there and will continue to show up every now and then if I don't keep it in check.

But one good thing about the angst is that it is good fuel for my songwriting, which I have started to get back into now. I'm hoping to have a couple more finished songs under my belt by the time I go back to University in February.

I think that's all from me at the moment. Who knows when I'll be writing again! Cheers to anyone who read this, you're cool. :-P

Third Year Is Almost Over

FLIIIIIIP!!!!!
I haven't written a blog entry since July, but technically it was before that because in July I just put my short story up. Man, it's been a crazy few months.

I know people always say that, "Oh my life is so crazy!!!!" But it really was, and a lot of it I can't write about because I don't wanna dwell on the past and bring it all up again and bla bla bla.
But to be fair, weird stuff always happens in my life, and I wouldn't have it any other way because at least it keeps things interesting.
And its potentially song writing inspiration.

Speaking of which, I haven't written a song since I left Kaitaia, it's flippin hard!!!!! Sure there is a lot of stuff I could write about but it just seems like such a massive task. I only know so many chord progressions, I should just shift the capo around a bit more on my guitar, no-one would know the difference...
I'm hoping to get back into songwriting when I go back up North, its easier up there. No distractions.


I'm feeling particularly nostalgic this morning, we had the Mothras last night, it didn't live up to what I thought it would be (in comparison with last year). Some of our team weren't able to make it, and it just wasn't as exciting as it was last year. But it was still pretty fun, it sucks when things aren't as good as you remember them though.

I feel like my time in Dunedin is coming to an end, but I still have another year next year doing Honours. It's gonna be an interesting year, it'll be a lesson in actually doing my readings and making an effort to get stuff done early. Assignments this semester have been less horrific than in the last one, it may be because I only have three papers or because I am trusting in the Lord to get me through it more easily. The last one is probably it. Its so easily to get overwhelmed by all the work but you just have to get it done. No point giving up, that's what I've found is important to remember.
Not doing any English papers has also helped this semester, I really love English but it required a lot of work.
I will probably stay a semester after next year and finish my English degree, if I don't then all my English work counts for nothing because you can't have a Minor with an Honours degree.

I don't like the fact I'm on the other end of my University life, it's actually going to be winding up one of these days, then its on to the next thing.

I don't like it when stuff changes. After highschool I felt like I had an emotional breakdown, I must have been sitting at home and playing World of Warcraft a lot because that's all I could talk about when I got to Uni.
Oh dear.
I seriously can't remember what I did the summer before my first year of University back in 2008/09, but it wasn't anything productive because I do remember feeling lost and not knowing what was going to happen. I feel like that's how its going to be when I finally finish Uni and move on to other things.

I won't stay in Dunedin I don't think.

But hey, one good thing that did come out of Mothras is the fact that a script I wrote for one of the V20 Conference videos got BEST SCRIPT!
I'm stoked about that because I think I would really like to get into script writing, its kind of the perfect balance of Film and English, both of which I am studying here at Uni. Maybe its too perfect...
Nah but I really love writing, as this blog would suggest.
But maybe I don't love it enough seeing as I haven't written in over three months...

Haha.. my bad..

I think I have compensated though, this blog is massive. And full of rambling and hopefully some profoundness but I can't really count on that.

Not sure if anyone will read this but me, but if someone else happens to, THANKS! Hope you've gotten something out of it, even if its just knowing a bit more of what I am currently thinking.


I'll write again in three months, hahaha.
Ciao :-)