22 November 2012
#Disappointment.
This is hard to write.
But I figure the world is going to find out about it eventually.
Its the kind of thing you can't keep hidden forever.
I'm not writing it as a Facebook status as I feel it would just be down-buzzing for everyone.
If you are reading this, it means you read my blog and you actually made an effort to leave Facebook and come to this website in order to read what this #Disappointment is.
I didn't get First Class Honours.
I can't even believe it.
I just assumed everyone got First Class. You never really hear about anyone getting Second Class First Division (well I have, but only once).
Everyone always goes on about how they got First Class.
Anything else isn't good enough.
I completely f-ed up my Honours year clearly.
Not gonna lie- I've had a bit of a cry. I'm just so disappointed in myself.
I already gathered that academic writing wasn't really for me, but I tried really hard.
Guess it wasn't hard enough though.
I am having a pity party,
This is me having a pity party.
Waah. Feel bad for me. #Firstworldproblems.
I'm such a disappointment.
This sucks.
I told everyone if I didn't get First Class my life was going to be over.
So this is my life being over.
Yes, I'm being a drama queen.
I just had a cry to my parents. My dad told me he doesn't care I got 2nd Class 1st Division.
I thought he would be super upset with me but he told me that he is proud I passed Honours and that at the end of the day none of this stuff even matters.
But it matters to me!!!!!
He said that God loves me and Jesus died for me and that is all that actually matters. Haha...
Mum told me to go watch X Factor to make me feel better. And eat a tim tam.
Dad also told me I'm not allowed to cry about this again so I'll try not to.
But I feel sad.
I need a hug.
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Awwww Martz :( :( :(
ReplyDeleteI'm really sorry for you :(
That does totally suck and I hope you find someone to give you a hug!!
But I'm also gonna say...what your dad said is right :) I know you're gutted now (and rightly so, you've worked hard and you didn't get what you wanted)....but trust me on this...(as someone with a few more years down the education track than you!!!!).....it truly truly won't matter in the long run.
YOU'VE STILL GOT AN HONOURS DEGREE.
I just checked the internet (because people always say stuff like this but I've never actualy seen the stats with my own eyes...) and do you know what? Less than TWO PERCENT of New Zealanders have an honours degree. Less than two percent!!!! You've got a GREAT qualification!! Honours is HARD work, and you've passed it and passed it well :)
And in all my years of filling out forms and things like that, I have to say it's extremely rare that it is ever ever differentiated. In fact I may have never seen it asked. You've got an Honours degree :) Be proud of yourself :) We're all proud of you :) xoxoxoxox
Did you miss the part where you got HONOURS?! You still did super well martz ! Dont focus on the negative stuff when there is so much to be positive about ! It sucks when you dont do as well as youd hoped, but mate, honours is still pretty a-mazing - so you should be PROUD and celebrate that you did in fact, just get honours.
ReplyDeleteYou're awesome Martz!:-) you did an epic job and having an HONOURS degree is epic! You need to remember 2 things: God LOOOOVES you and on graduation day you get to strutt around with NO FLUFF!!! You're closer to the fire of knowledge baby! Woop!!!!!
ReplyDeleteur still awesum anyway!
ReplyDeleteOhhh Martzie, I'm sorry you didn't get the First Class honours you wanted; you've worked so hard for this and it does really suck to get to the end of such a hard year and face disappointment like that. BUT on the plus side, you are among the top few elite students to even qualify to do an honours course, most students either don't qualify or can't sustain the high grades the whole way through their degree. Even if you can't see it right now to be proud of yourself, just know that I, and everyone who loves you is so so so so proud of you! It's such an amazing achievement even to finish an honours year with your sanity intact, and you have done so! Well done lovely you are amazing!!! xoxo
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